Stephen has been telling me I need to update more, but I've taken a liking to myspace (my site is www.myspace.com/lovebrazil so check it out)!

Things have been up and down with me. Right now I'm not even sure how things are going to turn out. A big thing I am struggling with is waiting for God to bring the right man into my life. I have been told by so many people that I need to marry a guy who wants to be a youth pastor and just "help him with his ministry" but I want to have my own! I don't care what all the strict, conservative Baptists (and others) think or say- but I WAS NOT CALLED TO BE A HELPER! I was called to have a ministry and I know that my ministry is going to be a wonderful blessing to God, and that is all that it needs to be. Who knows? I might end up marrying a future youth pastor/senior pastor, or I might end up marrying a teacher, writer, engenieer, anything! It may be God's plan that I wait for a future pastor, but I know that it is definately NOT God's plan for me to wait on a guy to start glorifying Him. And as long as I'm doing just that, I don't see how any God-loving person can have a problem with it. 

Much Love...   *JL*

Random facts about my past, present, and future...

Start Time:: 12:32pm
PAST
First grade teacher's name:: Mrs. Gribbon
Last words you said:: "Talk to you later." (getting off the phone)
Last song you sang: "What is this Feeling?" from the Wicked soundtrack.
Last thing you laughed at:: When I was going to my car at LU, this guy came up to me and asked me how to get to North Campus. He is a transfer student from Kenya, and his accent was awesome.
Last time you cried:: Friday when I watched "The Notebook" and I almost cried in "King Kong" on Saturday.

CURRENT
Current hair:: Strawberry blonde and long.
Current clothes:: Awesome cargo pants I got at Target, my Aero shirt that says, "It's hard work to look this good" and my Liberty sweatshirt.
Current annoyance:: One of my friends keeps signing on and off and his buddy sound is really loud and annoying and it's interrupting "Dancing Through Life."
Current smell:: Actually I don't smell anything... well, if I sniff my sweatshirt really close I can smell my laundry detergent.
Current longing:: China Super Buffet!
Current desktop picture:: A picture of the sunrise over the Gulf that I took while I was in Mississippi.
Current favorite music artist:: Idina Menzel from Wicked. She has the most amazing voice!
Current book:: "The Wedding Day"
Current worry:: How the heck I'm gonna afford to get the SAAB and the Camry fixed.
Current hate:: Car mechanics, lawyers, and judges (although the last two are for a different reason than stated above).
Story behind your username:: I Love Brazil. Simple.
Current favorite article of clothing:: My cargos.

What's in your cd player?: The Wicked soundtrack.
What color socks are you wearing?: Dark and baby blue striped.
What's under your bed?: nothing! Boxes.
What time did you wake up today?: 6am, but I went back to sleep till like 6:20am.

RANDOMNESS
Favorite physical feature on a girl?: Hair that is their natural color.
How about a guy? Hair and muscles (mainly arms).
Line from the last thing you wrote to someone:: "I can't wait to come back down to visit you." - A letter I wrote to the people whose house we helped to rebuild in Mississippi.
I am happiest when:: I am with family and friends.
I feel lonely when:: I'm alone.
Favorite authors:: Hawthorne, Grimm, and of course Shakespeare.
If you could live anywhere in the world, where would it be?: BRAZIL!
Famous person you have met:: Does Jerry Falwell count?
Do you have any regrets?: Yes, but I'd regret it if I put them on here.
Sex or love: Sex with the person you love after you are married.
Favorite coffee:: Any.
Favorite smell:: Bread. Don't ask, I just LOVE the way it smells!
What makes you mad?: Lazy people.
Favorite way to waste time:: Facebook.
What is your best quality?:: Trustworthy and reliable.
Are in currently in love/lust?: Eh.
What's the craziest thing you have ever done?: Getting kicked out of Wal-mart, sneaking up to the legendary forth floor of Demoss Hall (it DOES exist!), breaking into Tara's house to kid-nap her, Kymaree and I following this guy for an hour to spy on him (haha), smuggling illegal fruit into the States from Brazil, man, I could go on forever... LoL
Any bad habits?: Putting too much faith in people and not enough in God.
Do you find it hard to trust people?: No, I trust people much more than I should.
Last thing you bought yourself:: Books for school, and some not for school.
Bath or shower?: Shower.
Favorite season:: Spring.
Favorite color:: Pink and Carolina Blue.
Favorite flavor:: Chocolate.
Favorite time of day:: Early afternoon.
Gold or silver?: Silver.
Any secret crushes?: Sure, why not...

FASHION
Do you wear a watch?: No, my cell serves as my watch.
Favorite stores:: Target, Barnes and Nobles, Pier One.
How big is your closet?: Not big enough,.
Ever spend more then $200 in a store?: Besides Liberty bookstore- no.

FRIENDS
Do your friends know everything about you?: Tara does.
What do they tend to be like?: A ton of fun.
Can you count on them?: Yes.
Can they count on you?: Yes.

LAST...
Book you read:: "Someone Like You" - Sarah Dessen
movie you saw:: Erin Brockavich (some of it) on TBS last night.
movie you saw on the big screen:: King Kong - freakin awesome, but so sad!!
show you watched on tv:: LOST- I watch it every Wednesday, and that's about all I watch.
song you heard:: "Defying Gravity" - the Wicked soundtrack.
thing you had to drink:: Milk.
thing you ate:: Chocolate covered pretzals.
time you showered:: Yesterday- I'm going to take another one after i finish this so it better be almost over with!
time you smiled:: I don't stop smiling. LoL
time you laughed:: About an hour ago.
person you hugged:: Kymaree I think. Or Ashley (we just left CSB!)
person you talked to online:: Matt (a guy who was in my English class at CVCC).
person you talked to on the phone:: Ashley.

DO YOU?
Smoke?: No.
Do drugs?: Only prescription ones.
Drink Alcohol?: No. "It is a vile drink that turns even the most respectable man into a complete scoundrel!" - Pirates of the Caribbean.
Have sex?: Not untill marriage.
Sleep with stuffed animals?: Yes, my kitty named Gabriel.
Have a dream that keeps coming back?: I don't usually have dreams.
Play an instrument?: Drums, and a little guitar and piano.
Believe there is life on other planets?: No.
Read the newspaper?: Every day.
Believe in miracles?: Yes.
Consider yourself tolerant?: Not usually because the issues that come up are all liberal.
Consider police a friend or foe?: Both. They never bother me, even tho I can't go one day without speeding, running red lights/stop signs, and parking illegally (so I guess I really should like them!) but if they do give me tickets I'd be mad. True I shouldn't be doing those things but well... I don't have any defence for that. LoL
Like the taste of alchohol?: No.
Believe in astrology?: No.
Believe in magic?: No.
Go to church?: Yes.
Have any secrets?: Sure, who doesn't?
Have any pets?: No, but I'm getting a kitty when I move out- and maybe another iguana.
Go or plan to attened college?: I go to Liberty now.
Talk to strangers?: Yes.
Have any piercings?: Only in my ears.
Have any tattoos?: Not as of right now... 
Hate yourself?: Sometimes.
Wish on stars?: When I'm desperate. LoL
Like your handwriting?: I think it's fine but people always tell me that they can't read it. What's up with that?
Believe in witches?: No, but the ones in Wicked are awesome! LoL
Believe in ghosts?: No.
Believe in santa?: No.
Believe in the easter bunny?: No.
Believe in the tooth fairy?: No.
Sing in the shower?: Yes, especially when I'm at the YMCA, because it makes everyone else feel awkward and I think it's funny. LoL
End Time:: 1:13pm
Now I can go take a shower! Yippie!!

I have no idea why I put this on here so don't even ask. LoL